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I’m over Kathy

Well, this may be the last post concerning Kathy and I. In late Dec, I gave up any hope of getting back together with Kathy. I have my reasons. Giving up any hope of rekindling our relationship again was a major pivotol point in my recovery. The extra time off of work accelerated my healing process. I have also met some women, made some new friends, and bought some stuff & did stuff for me…which were all contributing factors to my rapid recovery.

Some of you guys have asked me “Well, if she said she wanted you back, what would you say”. I would say “No”. Don’t get me wrong….I would have been satisfied with Marrying Kathy, starting a family, and growing old with her. But since the breakup, I realize that she wasn’t giving me what I wanted or needed from her and for our relationship. I realize that there are women out there who can give me what I am seeking and who are ready for a commitment to me, a relationship, and more.

Kathy and I do sporadically keep in touch. I don’t know if we are really friends or not. It is what it is and Life goes on. I have moved on!

Went out last night & had a blast!

After my shitty ass afternoon phone call from my manager, I needed to go out to a local establishment. I tell ya, it was fucked up, crazy, & wild!!! Omg! I think someone took a picture of me on my camera phone. I would not have done any of that if I wasn’t single. Maybe being single isn’t that bad afterall….

Life sucks

My day is fucking shitty now. I just got ripped a new asshole from my manager I didn’t even do anything wrong.  You would not believe how Irate she was. I just can’t win at work. :(  Vicki let me have it all over reporting visability. DAB is a ‘B’ site. At a ’B’ site, the lowest visability that can be reported is M1/4 which means ‘less than 1/4 mile’. The previous observer was reporting 1/16 & 1/8 mile vis (which is still not technically wrong at a B site). When I came on shift, I reported M1/4 for all my obs except for 1 ob. As I explained to Vicki, the NWS called me concerning the low vis b/c they were considering issuing a dense fog advisory. I got chewed out not because my observations were incorrect, but becuase my vis was not consistant within my own observations AND because I was not consistant with the previous employee. Really? Come on.

Life sucks. I don’t know how much worse it can get. I just want to curl up in a ball and disappear.

Dating again

I am looking forward to dating again. I have one on the books for next week and I’m working on a few others. Yay. I’m excited. I’ll keep you guys posted by posting posts. lol.

Back in FL

I arrived safely back to relatively warmer florida around 1020p and had to work at midnight. Yuk. It feels good not to drive anymore and I can’t wait to go to bed in about 30 minutes. Ahh bed. Speaking of which is one good thing about the break up - is that I got my queen size bed back. Ahh sleep. I’m so freaking tired. Heck, even 4 hours of sleep at this point will feel pretty awesome. hehe.

The Chicago vacation was a mixed bag for obvious reasons. Aside from Kathy’s situation, I did go skiing in Michigan on Saturday, saw a bunch of family including Great Grandma Fick, and went to a smashing pumpkins concert in Downtown Chicago Monday night. So lots of fun and thats just what the doctor ordered. I also brought down my small boat to do some fishing. Yay. My appetite has returned along with with my enlarged stomach! lol. I will be getting back on track right after I get some sleep today. I think today will be a day of rest.

Kathy is back in FL as well. I don’t think it has really hit her yet but as a friend, I will give my support, comfort, & love to her. She may be my ex, but I still know how to bring a smile to her face!

Kathy’s mother’s Wake & Funeral Info

Kathy’s mothers wake is Today, Wednesday from 3-9pm at Hallowell & James Funeral Home: 301 75th Street, Downers Grove, IL. The funeral is Thursday at 11am.

I will be attending both. I will be leaving for FL either Fri or Sat morning.

Kathy’s mother passed away

Very sad news. Kathy’s mother (Becky) passed away sometime between 1-4a this morning. Kathy’s mother lost her battle with lung cancer at Good Samaritan Hospital in Downers Grove. Becky was first diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer Nov 07 I believe. Her early symptom was a cough. Becky was only 50. Just way too young. My deepest condolences and love go out to Kathy and her family. Becky is now in a better place and no longer suffering.

This is just another reminder of how prescious and short life is.