Reflection: What could have been

January 20, 2009 by T Love.

I could be working part time in Daytona, living with my gf in Clearwater 5 nights a week, and living a life that would make people fill with Jelousy. All this would have been if Kathy and I were still together. Oh well.

This senario would have finally put us together and bring us closer than ever before. We could have taken the next step in our relationship. Life would have been freaking awesome and sweeet! Oh well.

Believe it or not, I thought our relationship was growing stale or had grown stale starting early last summer. It became routine and repetative. I believe we had reached a plateau. In hind sight, I believe that I did all I could given our long distance apart, work schedule, and our environement. I think what I should have done is moved in with Kathy in August 08 instead of taking the weather obs gig in Daytona. If I had done that, I honestly believe we would still be together - stronger than ever before! 

Looking back, our demise was due to mainly a communication breakdown. Also, I believe Kathy wasn’t ready for the next stage in the relationship, wasn’t ready for comittment to me & the relationship, and was scared. Was scared probably b/c both of our parents were divorced. This day and age, whose parents are still together? Not many. But you know what, if 2 people truly love each other and believe in each other, then the relationship will work. Heck, we survived many challenges but when communication is lost…all hope is gone. Kind of like the Titanic.  

I have moved on and doing quite well considering. Life is good again. And though I have quite a few walls up…when I meet that special someone again, I will let her into my heart again.

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