Girlfriend dumps me after nearly 2 years

November 29, 2008 by T Love.

After giving me another chance for 5 weeks, Kathy dumped me Thanksgiving night. I’m crushed, blah, and so fucking hurt on an unimaginable level. Though that 2nd chance of mine was doomed before it even started. I’ve had a few days to analyze things. I realize now that I really have no purpose or direction in life. What motivated me, what got me through the day - the week - the months, what gave me guidance and a future…..dumped me.

Kathy was my first true love. I thought she was the one for me and she thought the same. This was my first significant relationship and was a huge ass learning curve.  I thought I was making the best decisions for us with the information and environment that was presented to me each time. I never meant to hurt her and thought we would grow old together.  And yet, I feel I was used, dragged along, and decieved for so long.

Though I got some closure, I have more questions than answers. The answers I recieved just don’t jive but I think I know what was happening behind the scenes. What I just can’t understand is that if I was the one for her and if she was in love with me and she really cared about me, us, and our relationship….why on earth didn’t she just say something. Am I that frightning? (maybe sometimes with morning breath! lol)

Anyways…not sure how I will be emotionally. As much as I would like to forget and move on….thats much easier said than done. I think she will be moving on much sooner than I.

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